This is what a wizard looks like.

This weeks Parlour poster was rushed, since I wasn’t really supposed to be designing it. Finished in about an hour. Not counting an excruciating bout of time spent in frustration due to missing information and missing people with said information. “I’m not even supposed to be here today!”

There are some problems with it, and but you get what you get, ingrates.

Anyways, I reused elements from earlier works, cobbled them together, and made some quick changes.

Rushed to an insane degree, good thing I have spare parts at my disposal.

Sigh. Now to put on a happy face and head to my duties as doorman for the night.

If you had to pick only one night, show up on Saturday.

Anyways,  my scanner is broken. I drew the black elements of the woman by hand, took a crappy cell phone picture, cleaned up the image a little, vectorized it, and cleaned it up some more. The original was a single line drawing that I did in one continuous stroke. After that, added some extra elements to flesh it out a little. Presto.

Time worked : 4:30am – 7:15am

There is certainly a motif I am currently working with.

Hope your Thanksgiving makes you poop alot.

xoxo

Ryan Alexander-Tanner, of PDX Exposed and Dave’s Killer Bread fame, made a portrait of me! Behold!

Recently he made a pretty awesome post on his blog about a t-shirt design he was making for Dave, its a funny and insightful view into the painful world of being a creative for hire. Take a look.

Back in the day I used to come home from a long hard day at the porn store and Ryan would be up at 4AM reading and drawing comics, then we would go get some Rodeo Burgers at Burger King. How fondly I look back onto these simpler times.

Anyways, you should subscribe to his blog. His work has a really rich satisfying quality, and his personality shines through in all of it.

I really need to get on some ink brush work!

Thanks Ryan!

I took this picture around two years ago, its one of my favorite photos I have ever taken.

The plan was to sit on it for a while, and get a large print made up for a gallery show one day. It has been too long, so here it is.

It sums up everything about me, at least at the time I took it. I’m remembering myself lately, and revealing this image is in tune with that.

Manifesting and being what is on the screen at the same time, self love like snorting lines of absolutely absurd indulgent narcissism.

Its these kinds of pictures that have won me hoards of trolls and haters on these internets, people obviously too stupid to see that this is a counter-weight. The entire story isn’t here on the surface level, and it never has been.

Every item in the picture tells a little tale to me. Like I said many posts ago, ‘chaoflux’ means pleasant mess.

Feels good to expose myself.

thrown together in a few minutes like a vector haiku

Lots of things are going on with me, internally and externally.

Overall depression has been harder than usual to kick, but now I feel a little reinvigorated, feeling like I found the others, for real this time.

Anyways, plan is currently to go back to school sometime for fine art, no matter the expense or irrationality of it.

Got my catharsis this morning.

piss piss piss piss piss, originally uploaded by chaoflux.

piss piss piss piss piss

Recently the charming Dawniris Hotcake Eyres asked me what my theory on Tarot was, and rather than be curt as I normally am when asked such a thing, I wrote the following little response. None of this information will be all that new and interesting to those well versed in the subject, but I suppose this has more to do with my personal approach than anything else. Reposted here.

Made in 2006ish

Theory of Tarot, eh?

I prefer to be as minimalistic when discussing the esoteric, so forgive me I am obtuse. In fact I prefer not to have a theory, but more of a workable hunch.

Divination works by using meaningless random results to discover novel meaningful information.

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I’ve been working on a zine.

At first I had parts in there about design but I’m not feeling it anymore.

The stuff I’m taking out I’m just going to post here, mostly since popjellyfish wanted to read it, and maybe a few of you might actually need to. Its unfinished, and pretty unstructured, but its never going to get out unless I get it out now.

Its essentially design gripes from my own little point of view, somewhat in the context of speaking to my community of occultniks as a whole. I’m not sure I can even stand behind it, philosophically, but nevertheless, here it is. Enjoy.

Pretty Damned For Kids : Style Sheet Witchcraft

As a designer with a good network of creative and intelligent friends who represent their work online, it has been hard to navigate while biting my tongue. I have a backlog of criticism and unasked for advice when it comes to logos, site design, and identity creation that will never find its way out of my system unless I let it out, so in the following I attempt to relieve myself.

Specifically, my network is comprised of people who are all familiar with concepts such as memetics, magic, and marketing. I personally detest the practice of marketing the use of marketing as magic, because its tacky, but I also don’t have a problem with good natured hypocrisy. I am a ‘chaos magician’ after all, and thats just how we roll, right? Anyways, the following is addressed to those who understand this paragraph. This is especially for those who are creators of niche media and arts.

It seems to me that my community for the most part got into the occult via Chaos Magic or Crowley, but altogether ignored Anton Lavey, because somehow he was harder to take seriously than those two sources of reputable flimflam. Memes they may have missed out are on some of the most important ones a serious business wizard can have. LaVey’s magic is centered on practicality before spirituality, focused on the results in the here-and-now. In particular, Lesser Magic:

Non-ritual or manipulative magic, sometimes called “LESSER MAGIC,” consists of the wile and guile obtained through various devices and contrived situations, which when utilized, can create “change, in accordance with one’s will.” In olden times this would be called “fascination,” “glamour,” or the “evil eye.” […] To manipulate a person, you must first be able to attract and hold his attention.

- Lavey

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